Life and The Rules

Do you a freedom to be yourself? Not all the time...
It is difficult to be yourself... but it’s hard to fake just not want to be yourself.
Cause sometimes you have to adapt to the people around you or the atmosphere to make a living...
Then slowly because of adapting too much you tend to forgot the true you.. and that is when the depression inside of you starts to grow unintentionally... Then you start to feel isolated feels and feels that no one understands you because you get bored and mope easily or maybe fed up of what you are trying to be...
Being yourself sometimes can be risky as you might not know there are very smart and vicious out there and can catch your weakness and use it against you. I don’t know. Am I fake? Or am I trying to hard to be myself or someone else? When I think again……. I’m still standing with my own feet, when I look at the mirror, I still see myself and I believe that I still me, and when I try to be somebody that I don’t it hurts.

Episode 6

She starts her routine like any other day before. Nothing special. He starting up with his blood, good for him, congratulations !!!
As usual, she always left out, being left behind, with everything that already been discussed, already being thrown out, they doing it great instead.She just sitting there knowing nothing but expecting for HOPE which will never have.
It's not like them, they planned everything together, they monitor everybody's character they open their heart to each other,but how as a two person, you interact as one. Where is the other one? Then, what will happened? Misscommunication? Misunderstanding?

The Q & A...

10 most stupid questions?

1. At the movies: When you meet acquaintances/friends...
Stupid Question: Hey, what are you doing here?
Answer: Don't u know, I sell illegal tickets here.

2. In the bus: A heavy lady wearing pointed high-heeled shoes
steps on your feet...
Stupid Question: Sorry, did that hurt?
Answer: No, not at all, I'm on local anesthesia. Why don't you try
again?

3. At a funeral: One of the teary eyed people ask...
Stupid Question: Why, why him, of all people.
Answer: Why? Would it rather have been you?

4. At a restaurant: When you ask the waiter
Stupid Question: Is the "Paneer Butter Masala" dish good?
Answer: No, it's terrible and made of adulterated cement. We
occasionally also spit on it.

5. At a family get-together: When some distant aunt meets you
after years.
Stupid Question: Munna, Chickoo, you've become so big.
Answer: Well you haven't particularly shrunk yourself.

6. When a friend announces her wedding, and you ask...
Stupid Question: Is the guy you're marrying well?
Answer: No, he's a miserable wife beating, insensitive lout...it's
just the money.

7. When you get woken up at midnight by a phone call...
Stupid Question: Sorry. Were you sleeping?
Answer: No. I was doing research on whether the Zulu tribes in
Africa marry or not.And you thought I was sleeping.... You
dumb witted moron.

8. When you see a friend/colleague with evidently shorter hair...
Stupid Question: Hey have you had a haircut?
Answer: No, its autumn and I'm shedding.

9. At the dentist when he's sticking pointed objects in your
mouth...
Stupid Question: Tell me if it hurts?
Answer: No it won't. It will just bleed.

10. You are smoking a cigarette and a cute woman asks...
Stupid Question: Oh, so you smoke.
Answer: Gosh, it's a miracle ...it was a piece of chalk and now
it's in flames!

Life and Mind...

Listen to : The Two Of Us - Suede

I cant sleep.My mind was elsewhere.

I watched Just My Luck with da Dory, just to entertain ourselves, It’s a simple happy ending movie, Lindsay Lohan in it.
Da Dory was assigned to go to Indonesia, as I’m still stuck here, hope everything is in order the way it was planned., and I will get myself to the happy land again .

People talked about relationship everyday, and life sucked everyday, shit did happened.
Poor they, as I can’t comfort them, yet I’m not in that position to consult, just did the best way that I can to support them. A friend once said “GG don’t be in that position, no matter how strong you are, coz it’s uncontrollable.” Shit!!! Suddenly I’m scared….

When talking about me, I’m fine just a matter of satisfying or overwhelming. I’m not sure. My life turns upside down sometimes. I don’t know how to feel sometimes, lucky? Unlucky? I’m not sure.

What do you think of these?

Situation 1
People leave the one that they loved because they don’t love the person anymore. And without any potential reason, makes he/her waits for answers.

Situation 2
Everything’s fine, it’s about to get attached but one of them not yet ready facing commitment.

Situation 3
Parent’s bless. They choose whom you will marry to, it doesn’t matter if he/her love the person or not.

Situation 4
He/her not sure about how they felt for each other yet still care and loved.

Situation 5
Unfaithful or infidelity?

Situation 6
He/her confused what’s their position after being rejected, yet they still loved and hope in the air. Hope to changed and be loved again.

Situation 7
She still wants him, will do anything to make he accept her back, he got someone else, is it worth it if she still waiting and hoping? For how long ?

Situation 8
He’s attached, still think about his ex’s even making conversation about his ex’s with her girlfriend and ask question “ I love you, but can I marry my ex’s because I pity her?”

Situation 9
She's the lady boss, because he don't make just enough.

Situation 10
He doesn’t loved her anymore. She love him so much. He can’t say no because he will feel sorry for her.

Life and Break

Listen to Addicted -- Kelly Clarkson

It's like you're a drug
It's like you're a demon I can't face down
It's like I'm stuck
It's like I'm running from you all the time
And I know I let you have all the power
It's like the only company I seek is misery all around
It's like you're a leech
Sucking the life from me
It's like I can't breathe
Without you inside of me
And I know I let you have all the power
And I realize I'm never gonna quit you over time

It's like I can't breathe
It's like I can't see anything
Nothing but you
I'm addicted to you
It's like I can't think
Without you interrupting me
In my thoughts
In my dreams
You've taken over me
It's like I'm not me
It's like I'm not me

It's like I'm lost
It's like I'm giving up slowly
It's like you're a ghost that's haunting me
Leave me alone
And I know these voices in my head
Are mine alone
And I know I'll never change my ways
If I don't give you up now

I'm hooked on you
I need a fix
I can't take it
Just one more hit
I promise I can deal with it
I'll handle it, quit it
Just one more time
Then that's it
Just a little bit more to get me through this
I'm hooked on you
I need a fix
I can't take it
Just one more hit
I promise I can deal with it
I'll handle it, quit it
Just one more time
Then that's it
Just a little bit more to get me through this

Hey...I was devastated, there's been a lot of reasons lately.
I'm working on with a new sitcom, its a quick one, only takes 10 days to finish, and my full concentration will be with the JV project against GMA, hope everything will turns out fine.
We've been involved ourselves in a healthy lifestyle lately, emm, not to be said that I used to called people "poyo" especially those hunky with a huge muscle, obviuosly my target is not that, just to get a little tone and firm, of course everybody wants to look good including myself....hehehehe....it's good to have a friend with the same interest but different objective.....hehehehe
I was free for 2 weeks, and I made myself busy watching dvd's.

Amelie -- starring Audrey Tautou



It was a good French movie, it's quiet an old movie actually ( 4 years back), as I just watched it recently, Audrey played a unique character, done a lot of thing to please and helped people surrounds her. I still remember one scene, the old blind man wanted to cross the road, she saw him and helped him crossed, while explaining to him in details what's going on all the way, she described everything even into the flavour of ice cream the boy was eating...it's cool. The cinematography is nice, I'm not yet to the level to make any criticsm comment or compliment, but what I see is what I believe..its a good movie....and I'm enjoying myself watching it :)

Prison Break



Again, I missed this. Everybody watched these series last year, and I just watched it 2 days ago. It took me one whole day to finish the whole season, I had lunch in my room.I don't wanna go out, I slept the next morning ( Sunday ) at 7.30 a.m. I was addicted, curious to know more and more...I hate surprising yet I want to know what's going on next.Can't wait for season 2 next August. Wentworth Miller is too hot...hehehe