Life and The Heart Of The Four Sisters

Listen to : Flown Away – Lene Marlin
Venue : Makati Prime Tower Suites, Philippines

I’m alone…I’m sad…I’m lonely….suddenly I missed them….
And I realized….they are my precious….my sisters….my blood…

We never said we love each other. In fact we never even said the words love at all.
But deep down inside our heart all of us means something. We have 4 sisters. I am the eldest. I never played my part well, yet still we always remain together. We always fight, but I never hate them.
I still remember when we was a kid, as the eldest I always being a mastermind, we were so naughty back then. I guess our parents praying everyday to make sure that we become good kids. There was 20 years ago…we all grew up…and we manage to be a good kid to them….All those history makes us closer…we always joke around, and we very close to each other. We hate strangers….We remains to be four only…we hate intruders… Only our parents can give us a piece of word…for the rest sorry… we only playing numb..

On our birthday… we wont greet each other.. weird huh? But we will call and talk bout something else… and all of us know what’s that supposed to mean. We have our own way to communicate with each other. It’s very special and can’t be describe with words.

My sister will go abroad. She will leaving soon. I wanted to be there to see her, before she left. I hope that my schedule not packed because I am n the Philippines right now. Suddenly I felt lose…maybe we never being apart that long. She’s the closest one. She knew all my secrets. She always listen to me, and I fight with her a lot…but I know that I’m going to miss her… sorry babe…I knew when you read this you will laugh and said “ GG…gelilah…apalah kau ni”…but I knew you must feel something in your heart. And no need to tell me how you feel.

Babe…I really wanted to see you go. Maybe I can give away some of my stuffs to you. I know you will like it…maybe I will buy something for you here…it’s much more cheaper…
You know why I wrote this?
I switch on my laptop, and connect my portable hard disk…and I saw Chicane folder…and suddenly I felt so sad…am I going to delete the entire folder coz because I won’t be able to see you? I don’t have a heart to do that…coz maybe I will miss you.. I don’t know…that’s why I wanted to see you go….other wise I will regret myself. Maybe it will be my last time to see you… I don’t know…But seriously I hope that you can really take care of yourself…You know how hard for you to get there. Maybe in one fine day we will come and visit you…..
Babe…you know there’s a lot of things that we shared….story about our lives, sadness and happiness...Thank you for that……
And this is going to be the first time for me to say I love you to of my sisters….
I’m sorry if ever I never being a good sister to all of you, yet I’m trying, and we all know that all of us care and respect each other, and we won’t being separated no matter what happened….If ever anything happen to me…please know that I love all of you….never fail…everyday……

Life and The New Year....

Listen to : Always Love -- Nada Surf

The story will remain unsaid.
But these are the recap for 2006.

Hey…

Alhamdulillah...I'm still alive....
Looking back on what I said all those years ago, all the hopes and dreams I had, I've come to the conclusion that if having things turn out the way you wanted them to is a measure of a successful life, then some would say I'm a failure. The important thing is not to be bitter over life's disappointments. Learn to let go of the past, and recognize that every day won't be sunny. And when you find yourself lost in the darkness of despair remember, it's only in the black of night that you see the stars, and those stars lead you back home. I wish I found myself again

As for 2006 there are so many things need to be remembered and also being forgotten.
I will take all the good side to remember and throw away the entire negatives context.
In April me, Hafez and Da Dory went to Manila to give our best Roselle a visit..and she already have a boyfriend….Dodie…you are the man!!!
In August, my best colleague Da Dory left the company..and the “Superfoxx” and “byesexual” was anguished badly…yet they strong enough to face it.

There’s too much retention especially in November. I was producing “ Now and Forever” drama, and I’m too into it, really put my all effort till I can’t even sleep at night. Yet there are a lot of stories behind the stories and it will remain unsaid as it’s a lot to tell. * Smile*
In December, Lyn was engaged to Sab.

The best part…I just bought my first Prada bag “ Tessuto Oro “……Finally !!!

Bye 2006!!! And as usual still no resolution for 2007….Just hope for happiness ahead and being blessed…..

Summary : Not a good year for LOVE. It cost more pain compared to the beneficial of
being LOVED.
Good year for prosperity….*smile*

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE…….